Happy dependency

The major thing that stopped me becoming a Christian before I did was dread of giving up control. The thing I feared more than anything was having God decide how I should live my life. I would've hated the thought of this anyway, but it was made worse because my previous Christian experience seemed to be about restrictive, life-denying, socially-humiliating rules. I feared a return to all that.

God forced my hand by breaking my heart. Strange to say, I'm glad he did. I was never happy in my freedom. I gave myself over to him and realised that true Christianity is much more a yes to life; that Jesus' yoke is indeed easy and his burden light. I've found it inestimably better to live as I was made to, than to blindly order my own life.