The same person

My own sin used to confuse me. A huge question mark was cast over everything I once thought I was and I felt as though I had been masquerading as a good, kind person and to continue to act that way would be a lie. Nowadays I still hate myself for what I've done, but my identity doesn't crumble. I know that I'm a child of God and growing in him. While my godliness is genuine, it's mixed with sin and I do still stuff up. Yet even in my sin I can still act righteously by grieving over it and by humbling myself, apologising and taking steps to change.